It's been a while;
Been a while since we've last talked.
This is harder than I think you think it is,
Having you leave me so distraught.
When I told you that I loved you,
I hope you know it was the truth.
You said it to me as well,
I hope you knew what those words could do.
Just so you know,
I've cried about all of this too.
I've cried for you,
And because....
Well, because of you.
I hope you read what I'm saying,
Because these aren't just random words.
Are you still there?
I'm not yet finished.
Just one last thing,
a few last little words.
Remember when you said goodbye?
You were sitting on the couch.
I was trying to hold back the tears that came,
While halfheartedly staring back at you.
You had this look in your eye,
as if no matter what I could have said,
It wouldn't have gotten through.
I could tell you were done,
we were over with,
we were through.
Hell, I was blindsided;
No doubt about that.
You beat me up
Pretty good,
But all along I knew you'd be good at that,
and all along I prayed
that it wouldn't end that way.
I just wish there was more,
More I could have told you.
Maybe to change your mind.
Maybe so I wouldn't even have to be here tonight.
Crying.
Praying.
Saying, although much too late,
I love you.