This is a note to myself for when I am 5 years older and am not sure what I've been doing to get here

In a few days I will graduate from a school that taught me much more than just technical skills
In a few months I will be an adult
Life has already taught me so much
I have come to learn that the people that you thought would be around forever up and leave you in the dirt
They will tell you that you are pretty then stomp on your headstone

I want you to know that this is not an ode to you
More of a **** from me to you
I am glad that you are leaving this all behind
I am sick of faking it because that's the easier route
I want to be genuine but you make it hard to give the time

I will try to keep this short and sweet as of not to bore you
But I am sorry if I continue to ramble on
A lot of moments in my life have led to where I am today and I wasn't really sure what to think when I looked back on everything
Was I happy or was I just saying that it would get better because I didn't want the feelings of pain swarm my brain

The moment that you look back in 5 years when you have a family and maybe even a dog
Think of me
Miss me
I am what you thought was not worth your time
Regret it
Resent it
Much like the alcohol that you struggle to swallow down I come with a punch

I am sorry that this is may not be what you wanted as a goodbye
But it is the only thing that I could give you at the moment
This is the time of your life
Enjoy it but always remember
Life is a party and I am the host