I stayed in tonight
And for really, most of the day.

I left twice today to grocery shop
Exercise
The sun beaming through the windows all day
And for once,
I didn't try to pressure myself to be in a different place
To be in
Than I was in.

I was supposed to go to a going away party tonight
A friend that I've met on few occasions
Returns to her college town
And thats nice, thats lovely
Give everyone kisses for me.

Coming off the tails of marijuana distraction oriented bliss
We voice our insecurities by painting roses on them
I've been at it for a long time
Philly ******* is right as ****
I'm healin.

But really.
I am.
And the most painful part has been
The dissension
But I know it ain't nothin based on the love I'm given away
Or the palettes of paint captured with a lens
I kiss and love on the friends
Nurture those that stand next to me

I decided I wanted to end this poem
To write a new one
So I did.