you don't know, some things you never will. you never will the things you want to be, to be be- cause you're afraid they won't ever be, so they dangle on reality waiting for your action to free them from imagination. Imagine it was your choice. "To be or not to be?" is not the question about life and death like we thought, but about death and life, or doing and not doing (but not inaction, that's 4 another time). What I mean is this, to be is to live is to act is to take the knife and stake it in your flesh of the earth and call it your own, or easier than that to say hi to someone you've been wanting to say hi to. You've been wanting to say hi for an hour, and maybe they've been waiting, maybe not, but there are some things we'll never know, no, not doing.