I sit alone, I wonder why,
My life once bright, now upside down,
I fight the tears, I want to cry,
The smile I wore is now a frown.

I wonder why, I sit perplexed,
My mind a blank, I’m so confused,
Deceived by you, I’m feeling vexed,
No reason why, hence I’m bemused.

The smile I wear, merely a shroud,
My inner soul has formed a shell,
The joker playing to the crowd,
Disguising pain of inner hell.

This happy chap, once so bold,
Always one to laugh and joke,
Is torn in two, and feels so old,
His strength is gone, his feelings choke.

A dark and lonely, dreary place,
A tortured soul, all hope is gone,
A pale, gaunt look upon my face,
Where once was happiness, now there’s none.

You played your game and more fool me,
I share some blame, of this that’s true,
I will be back, just wait and see,
A stronger man, all thanks to you!

I’ve been a fool, deceived by lust,
You preyed on me, when I was down,
But you lost my heart, when you lost my trust,
And soon this joker shall lose his frown.

We live and learn in all we do,
As long as I learn from these mistakes,
But now I’ll find somebody true,
One to save this soul that aches.

A person warm, a soul like me,
A kindred spirit, alike in mind,
A lonely fish in a stormy sea,
One to share, the life we find.

This person exists, I know it now,
A soul mate true, a life long friend,
Our paths will cross, I care not how,
To share my life until it’s end.*

© Cinco Espiritus Creation
2012