Your hands looked older than the rest of you
Reminded me of my grandfather's
I always thought eyes were the first to age
But don't worry
they were next
After the sleepless nights
"You look like a zombie kid,
Like something that should of been buried a long time ago-"
I never thought you would take my words so seriously
The way you walked to class
passed me in the hall,
you didn't even see me
Because of the cloud in-front of you
In a mist
In a fog
You can call it
Whatever the **** you want
But you were gone
And I searched through all those papers in your desk
Somewhere for an answer
But knowing you, you probably kept all those secrets in your head
Where you knew that they were safer
And all I want, is to satisfy this curiosity
I just want to know
Why did you have to leave?
Im the kind that needs answers
What was eating at you?
Gnawing at your bones?
You became a stick figure
Someone I used to know
What was eating at ya?'
How come no one knew?
Would you tell us now?
Could we face the truth...
Was it a repressed memory
something you mentioned when we were fifteen
About an uncle in a basement built on hate
And in that tree house under the blue
you said was where you felt safe
Was it when you started smoking
to calm your shaking hands
Or stopped taking pictures
Or when you joined that band?
Because I swear to ******* god
you had the biggest smile I knew
The most goofiest grin
the funniest jokes
And I swear to god if lose one more
I just mind end up like you too
"If all your friends jumped off a bridge, would you?"
Well why the **** would I want to keep living here
without
you