I guess its the end of an era And I'm just so tired It would have been great For today to have been a good day.
Distracted by the ringing buzzing device in my hand You tried every which way to get my attention "To put a stop to this" My girlfriends and I laughed at you.
A middle man The worst of all What does it matter I'm so tired I'm so just done from it all Bloodied lip, broken hymns You once supported me with such love Don't you dare claim That you have respected me.
Grossly inappropriate you wrote I bet you had to dream that one up And I seem to keep getting criticized By a million eyes Yet you don't see that I'm doing such good You clearly don't see the positive influence I have had Dark place The women who have torn me down The men who have left me You said As if a throw away remark.
****** up Its all just so ****** up And I'm nervous to stay in my house alone Because what happens when my other room mate comes home Things were supposed to be better Happier But I feel myself lowly dissolving Dying into ash And I know I have to light myself on fire In order to resurrect.
I'm not sure I asked myself today What will bring me happiness today I don't know I work all the time I'm tired all the time I'm lucky And I've been looking in mirrors lately And thinking I'm not special I'm not pretty And everything around rains down.
And it occurred to me In my kitchen For a moment I realized and remember I felt it and I brushed it off We love each other still And I have just Absolutely nothing to give.
I asked myself today What would bring me happiness What needs to change A new boyfriend? A new haircut? A tattoo? A move? Go out? Food? Plans? Work?
And none of it None of it really saves me today.
The end of an era I know thats all it is 3 months has come and gone Here's to many more I don't know what will bring me happiness today I feel so
Scr..and just like that As I'm mid my own pity party You call.
A fire emoji next to your name Your words broken and bent like pieces of forgotten glass I was right when I told my best friend today "We are both just going through it" Your family, your job You told me of death and obligation My words longing to be smooth and consoling I found myself so quickly and in such a Change "Its okay babe. I'm so sorry." I'm here for you always And I really meant it.
You cried on the phone My sweet Beautiful Innovator Mentor Dear Friend Artist We could fall in love But for now I'm here for you. And you me.