My tears stem from a place far beyond reach.As much as I try to follow the river of my emotion to its source, it's hidden like buried treasure.  Bits and pieces of memories and hurt flash into my thoughts from time to time.  It reminds me of the most darkest places Ive been in my life. Most importantly it reminds me to keep looking ahead.  I can dwell on my past consistently, mindlessly causing myself turmoil. Causing me to predict my own downfall and destruction. In reality, what I predict only happens because I expect it to.  How can I expect myself to change or grow when I'm constantly doubting my own being and potential.  I was placed on this Earth for something much bigger than my mind can even fathom; we all are. The one common mission we were all entrusted with is to spread and to be love. Except we not only need to spread love to all those around, but we need to accept it as well. The darkest place that we as humans can experience in our minds is insecurity. Insecurity can lead us down an unintended road of hurt.  It can stem from the people in your surroundings, yes, but the worst comes from within. So many people take experiences that are out of their control and constantly wound their own hearts with hurt. You can lie to yourself all you want about how you aren't good enough and if you were only a certain way you would see change and happiness Sprout into your life. That is one hundred percent a lie. Happiness truly does come from within, it stems from a place of purpose.  Once you realize that you are not just coincidentally born into a magical planet that happens to be suspended in the middle of an endless universe, you will find happiness. The reason being that at that moment, you will  understand there has, is and will always be something bigger and more complex working in your favor.  You realize you hurt because you are in the process of a bigger lesson to be learned, and these lessons will allow you to help others to heal as well.  You realize you are not alone in this world, there is always someone hearing your hurt and wishing you just understood how beautiful you are inside and out . From there you start to realize you are and can and will be the change that needs to be seen, but it all starts from a place within. So starting today I'm making a change in this world, and it's starting with myself.  No more doubt, fear, or discomfort in the essence of my God created being.  I was made to look, feel, love, hurt and care exactly the way I do now. Denying the fact that I was made in the most perfectly imperfect way, to me, is equivalent to denying my whole existence.  I am who I am and I will attract those that are meant to stay, those that will help me grow and even those that will cause me hurt.  But in the end it will all be the same; lessons.  Lessons of trust, deceit, love, friendship and fallacies. But knowing this, that every experience is beneficial to you in some type of way, you start to see that miracles happen every breathing second that you're alive. Thus, slowly this world will start to change and we can one day evolve into the love that God intended for us all