What hurts more than anything
I thought so cleverly and poetically in my head
As I drunkenly left the party alone
Entertaining and flirting with the men
Who are ladders above you
But I'm so drained
And I've been revisiting
Listening to the song
That once made me think of you
And filled me with such hope
It just hurt me so much baby
That I gave everything
Ripped open my secrets my soul
And you did too
But you chose to stab me to death
In the end.

And it's funny to think now
How informed
My work is
Dear god please no more
Romantic hurt
It's the best
Worst
And silliest
Hurt.

Cereal and my bed
I refrain from texting
My eyes will soon close
Can't wait
I left the party tonight
Because I didn't feel pretty
Or important anymore
Though we danced and sang our siren songs
I lead the pack
And all these new faces follow
But sometimes I want
To just tag along.

Wolf man and I jest, caress
He's got some **** sass tonight
But I've always got more
I drank Dark & Stormys tonight
With a gal pal
She asked me my end goal

I have no ******* idea anymore.

To be.
Joyful.