Tuesday came... and I saw you...
Beautiful as ever..hard and ****..
I looked at you..you ignored me for the first time ever..
It felt like a slap in the face..
My playful lover, gone away..
And I froze up
I forgot what to say...
How to say it...
Maybe if I'd said something I wouldn't be writing this poem about my frozen heart...
I walked away.
It's what you wanted.  
I took my caught feelings and did exactly as you wanted.
I made it easy for you... because I love you.
This isn't what I want... I didn't say it..
I said nothing...
All frozen and numb... wanting desperately to flee from you...
Someone two days ago I couldn't wait to kiss..
You pulled that stone around you and pushed me out of a speeding bus...
My hands were shaking,  breath catching in my throat, voice catching there too...
You let me walk away..
I should have said something...
Though a day later... after hours of pondering...
I still don't know what ....
would it have mattered?

E.J.M.