I need to put this down in words So that one day it will have meaning And it will never be forgotten Because I will never lose the feeling Of being lost Scared And cold With out you there, by my side
I push my makeup around my face Moist with tears And soaked with sweat This is what love does It hurts And it takes Loving is like feeding a beast Whose belly never fills
Sickness All day and from nowhere Something foreign Disrupting my body My day and my life It doesn’t belong to me And it never will
Fear And the realization that I am alone Chase away my numbness Keep me in the present Persistently filling my lungs with air Air that’s cold and unforgiving Loveless Like me
Strength comes from a deep place Somewhere hidden from view A place whose existence I was unaware of It startled me And left me stable Standing alone on straight legs
Laying tense Cold Solid on the table Dressed in slippery wax paper It was taken Ripped from me And I let them have it Left to walk away As half Of what I once was
A little more beaten down A bit more defeated A cold shell of a bitter girl Helpless and mad as a hatter Screaming inside And running wildly In a still stiff stance
Where’s my power now? Did they take that too? Or did I just hand it over Again Giving up too easy And leaving too soon