when he sat down silence followed
what was there to say,
we hadn't talked in a month
so much had happened
so much couldn't be taken back
i missed him
but not enough to let go of my anger

I hadn't fought for us
letting him hate me without a word
no explanation
what does that mean?
was there nothing worth fighting for
when he opened his mouth
my heart melted
my anger, and regret disappeared

I'm sorry, for everything, i didn't mean what i said

can i trust him to hold my heart again
maybe i don't have to tell him how i feel
he could hurt me
he had made me feel messed up
worthless
he didn't even let me explain
letting me suffer
a discarded toy

but I miss him
and I can't stop thinking of him
can he truly care again?
can i care again?

*I forgive you