our clothes are perfumed in the after effects of the cigarettes you and he share as we drive down unpaved paths in Iowa
bits of ash slip past your seatbelt to build new nests tangled gray birds in my beard's brambles
the wind splutters its dying breaths as a Jeep Cherokee kicks up specters of dust and i sit in the backseat forgotten while second-hand smoke leaks out half-cracked windows fleeing your presence
i envy the particles liberated from the confines of your cancerous lungs slipping free and disappearing into the mourning light rising with a ruddy sun behind anguished hillocks