I used to look outside into the daylight
Look long Into the darkness,
Eyes lapping up silence and noise in
Greedy proportions
Grouping, feeling searching
For something that tasted safe,
That could satiate some plain of my existence
Break me clean of this emotional dissonance
Stand firm under crashing wave of feelings
That lay wait

Turbulating  and churning against the inside of my brain
Ensnared by the fray

After being raked through thoroughly
With razor sharp cynicism
Pulled to pieces by the weight of in differences
No I have pulled at to many threads
Traveled
unraveled and traversed  
Too far into this abyss
To remain un-scattered, unscathed, unchanged

And thats ok

But I taste like
A brokenness so sweet it aches
And
The only place
That tastes safe lies deep between my breaths
And in coffee shaded eyes.
No I cannot say I am the same
Or that i'm
entirely whole
At least now i know
The exact depth of my convictions
The degree of my worth and will and wanting
I can haunt you
With the shadows in my depth i
Can steal your breath
With the wanting my honest azure eyes casts
And at last
With so many parts of me laid to rest
I’m free to test
The eternity you hide in your eyes
Flash glimpse behind soft lips
Masquerade behind truths dressed
As lies
You astound me
And I will spend every day
Chasing new ways to
Taste your kiss.
I will build bliss
Out of my  thankfulness
With strong shaking fingers
Un-clinched
Stitched delicately with your laugh
I will map out our happiness
On your heart with my pin
Emerse you in love letters
In apology notes
In an unending list of the things
I will miss
And love
And break and kiss
I found me
You
Found us
And Never before have I had such trust
This is enough