I believe I have forgotten how to cry
The pressure builds in my chest
But nothing comes out
I can feel the frustrations going
As quickly as they came
The indifference sinks in
And I wish I could go back to the time
Where I was okay

But the more and more I think about it
I don't know if that time ever existed

I have always felt left out of everything
I have never been in the loop
I have never felt like I belonged within all the groups

I wish I could drop it all
And leave without a trace

I don't want these toxic feelings
I don’t want the toxic waste

I wish I was back in humboldt
Where I could go days without trouble
Everything was so much easier
But everything was not much better

Why cant I be happy?