It fills my eyes with tears when I think of all the years he spent treating you so terrible. He acted like your heart was paper: Tear-able. He thought he could tape it up with lies: Repairable. But- tape is translucent, & the cracks are still, visibly, strong- so jagged and deep. & though it's been so long- one can still see it in her eyes. I guess not everything gets healed in time- or not in the time period that one would like.
If I may say just one thing: You are admirable- through & through.