My body shut down this week Creaking and hinging doors resounding Shutting and clamoring down Seemed so hopeful for a split second Felt good to discuss, intellect swimming Confetti started to fill the room My eyes, but its been hard to leave the bed My body shut down.
Sitting on the chair in the doctors office I get lost in my own fields Paint brushes, forgotten kisses Words I make myself speak Life much too short to keep sounds.
He's goin' through a break up Grief in his voice, I let him go too Wasn't fun or what I wanted to do But I see pictures of the past with his new girlfriend And I'm such a lover of women But that girl is ******* ratchet.
"I tried to tell you. I warned you." I hold hands and make my own profound way Thankful for the business That tomorrow and the rest of eternity will bring I don't got time to be sad But I allowed the weather to reflect my innermost state On this day, my body feels so heavy, fatigued Its too bad cuz our connection was real deep.
I felt apprehensive Just 'bout cookin' you a meal And I think really Its about where I'm at Not interested if a future isn't on the table And right now, I can't cook for two Not cuz I can't afford it, although thats real too But because the thought of catering Caring, sweeping For another
I just can't do it. I'm too tired, too weary I've extended and given so much of myself away
So I take a hot breath in Release another one out This is truly the most alone I've ever been.
I become friends with it. I stand and look it right in the eye I don't deny my feelings inside Or shut my mouth to make you or you comfortable But I persist, I chase the wind I shut the **** up about ticking clocks Or just how you forgot What was next to you.