guess who's here?

anxiety's here!

let me take your heart
and make it
beat
s l o w l y
           w
          o
r        l
e     s
  a  
   l y
    l

          a n       d

it will make you collapse!

liketherewasafuckingblackholeinsideofyou

andthennothi­ngmakesANYsense
b e cccccccccause-

things went chaotic! quickly
            
a       I    
  n  
    d

want to-

-disappear!?

don't believe me,

I'm just

******

but

I have to keep breathing

as if

nothing is happening

can I?

should I?

I don't really know but oh God I wish I could know anything of anything at all

and I wish I wouldn't have to keep writing this statements about

desiring an uncertain death that

doesn't come.