we are safe here among the fern fronds among the cigarette smoke -you can not move- you can not go from here not now, anyway i can not stay but i do and i feel all the better for it i try to reason myself out of this mess "you have feet" i say "you have feet and you don't need shoes" "you don't need anything but money" when that doesn't work i move to reconciliation you did not get what you asked for you got something better this is why the leaves turn brown in the fall why the caged bird sings circles are round and butterflies never fall, they float all the way down no conveniently built staircase how do you get back up again?