I remember waking up to a start
Panicked
Feeling your arm around me
My heart slowing down before speeding up again
Feeling your arm around me
And I kissed you...
...Your jaw...
...I didn't mean to
But I felt your arm around me
Comforting me
After a nightmare
And I kissed you
And you were awake
Startled by my movement
And you kissed me
You kissed my forehead
My heart
My heart almost burst open
That feeling
Nothing could compare
I just had had
My first kiss
And I almost wanted it to be my last
God,
I loved you so much, then
God,
I love you so much, now
When darkness sets in
And I wake up with a start
And I feel my heart beat beating
My cold sheets surrounding me
I let my mind wander back
To that kiss
And let me heart speed up
And let me heart swell up
Just before it crumbles again
**Under the weight of absence
Under the weight of silence