I want to forget. But I just can’t
I don’t understand why the thoughts won’t leave my mind.
Like hornets disturbed, they swarm and stab at me
With vicious and vile stingers. Again. And again.
There’s no hiding, no swatting them away
Why can’t I just turn off the noise
Why won’t the memories leave me alone!
Go away! I can’t take the pain anymore
I don’t want to be trapped in the shackles of fate
Or branded by the irons of regret!
Please, leave me alone. I’ll do anything, anything
Anything! I’ll do whatever you want!
Let me go, let me survive. Make the pain stop
Make it stop!
Wait, yes, I can make it stop
Whatever pain registers will be brief.
It’s worth the pain, the risks. Yes! To leave this cell
Inside myself
And all I have to do is jump.
The whispers, the noise, the hornets, the SCREAMING
The stings, from the thoughts and the wind
Agonizing, MADDENING, and consuming
Then
Silence.