I'll trawl the squalor, if you like, stick blinkers on to hide the fact that my life has so far been a charmed one.
I can conjure a face, small, forgotten black against a duststorm sky - There's your poverty for you, And yes, I was there
And sure, I smelt the days old sweat and can remember hunger as a curiosity The boy's name is known to me but I won't share it
Because he was real but I missed his reality and I have no right to it. ***** hands notwithstanding I was just a tourist, a passing mote of dust in his drought-stricken life.
I was there for me collecting picturesque snapshots which would inform my return to an undeserved comfort (but only slightly).
To say he was important, totemic, symbolic, is false. I remember him, that's all -
My boys, my clean, happy, here-now boys eclipse that shadow in every respect. An honourable assertion only in that it is true; and a brief regret that I made no contact flickers out before a blaze of contentment, a bedrock of good fortune with little to offer the vicarious seeker of hard-won wisdom.