I don't want to drink or think or ink,
I don't want to wash or sleep or take a single second away from the truth that I've hurt the person I care about more than I could ever comprehend.
You mean everything to me and I've undone the fabric of my own existence,broken my own reality,and for what?
Some stupid twisted episode?
I'm a ******* loser,I lost my life,my future wife,to experience strife,like a mug.
I sabotaged my own happiness because I see nothing but a single moment and flare up like some pretentious *****.
God I'm sorry,
I'm hurt and I deserve it.
You deserve every happiness in life and I brought you pain.
I'm nothing.
I'm glad you realised that because without your push I would of held you down,
I love you so much that i'd hold you back with idiocracy,some twisted ideal that it'd all be fine,you'd be mine but i'd stop you from being happy and you deserve more.