sitting in our little car
scrunched next to the two
warm little bodies
I've come to love

talking to the man I idolize
thinking he's more than human

my mind is an infinite river

there are stars in my eyes
dancing swirling
gone

there are words in my heart
gleaming and writhing
creating
like stars

there is a rawness in my veins
a hatred, a pure love

beauty I want, cannot have
c-ca-cannot have

music dances
elven lights
I sink like metal in water
slowly

all at once

drifting in the tide of life, drifting, dying living
awake asleep dead alive

awake in some ways, asleep
in others

what is evil
what is good
what is heaven
what is hell

none of that matters
all that matters is
the heart of the Earth,
soaking and pushing and struggling against us

the veins in a pale wrist
the patterns on a leaf's underside
the dancing light glimmering off water

am I dead