And I realised all this time I had been listening to your pathetic excuses and I bought them because I couldn't bear to take on board the implication. Sometimes ignorance is bliss, but it's this same ignorance that's the death of me and I can't rationalise it. Clinging onto a word that rhymed because I thought it better to believe the majority were simply polite and not the ghastly cruel beasts I felt them to be.
You saying your mother had a speech impediment in the form of a lisp was what really broke my heart, and I could have hurled the whole set of dinner plates across the room and it would have seemingly been a gross over-exaggeration -but my heart doesn't measure pain in levels like that. I know the police would have been called and I'd collapse in a heap on the ground and they'd demand to know what happened?! and they'd all disclose they'd never seen anger like that.
That time you invited me to dinner I wore my best shirt and sat opposite them. I tore down our conjoining road, feeling the thud in my heart, the lump form in my throat.