all you did see was my laughter
smiles and friendly banter
never for once you really thought
that deep inside I could be hurt

I tried to live my life the best way
I could, just to make you smile every day
and you never saw the pains and tears
that i hid deep inside all these years

but today I am giving it all up
bringing flowing tears and blood to stop
never to feel again the chest rise
to the beat of life which is a ruse