My citron stone Just fell with an iconic thump To the ground as I performed my nightly routine.
The faces of eager, young, fierce women Sit across from me, we fulfill and fill each other up With what no man with the largest bouquet of red roses Could ever give us.
Periwinkle tourist sweatshirt I bought it because I knew it would be cute on the beach This new summer of 2016 But mostly because I was cold.
I had a moment where I shopped for bathing suits And it hit me like a distant dream The first time I took off my clothes Sand underneath my toes I remember just the way you looked How your body tensed and your face lit up With such intrigue, desire As you saw me from afar I knew I was in deep trouble then.
We walked through the hot summer sun I was drawn to your playful swagger.
But I remember lights and warning signs flashing As you spoke of ex-girlfriends, ninja turtles You couldn't calm down.
I was so quiet, even seemed shy then.
But I too, was intrigued Intending only wet summer hot kisses Because I could, I could We got so lost in the cleansing quality We hoped lemons and oranges Could possess.
I wonder sometimes If it deeply saddens you That I reside so near I know you feel my presence, energy In the world around you But you blockade it all With your little hands And *****, ***** teeth.
I would do anything To take it all back.
I think and I say to myself.
But the universe is a funny little thing You were so far away for 2 months 2 months for me to cultivate and grow On my own Its no wonder we had to force it Your straw brim hat We walked together on that beach As if a ****** sea quilted under the stars Between you and me.
It just was never gonna work You wanted it with all your might You made me want it too.
But I knew.
The best days and nights of my life Never involved you.
I was in danger from that day forward on North Ave Beach I avoid trespassing and words that would hurt You hide my honesty like a bumble bee sting Glass in your feet You couldn't walk us home
Because you couldn't "This is my first time dating a director" You said, a kick in your step And for a moment, you had me too Convinced But I knew I knew. I knew.
Images of ray ban sunglasses, orange tank tops The need for me I loved how we shared, how we talked You wanted so badly You needed so badly