Mickey mouse dress over the lamp shade Sometimes feeling so small, like little Glass figurines I just got hit with the wonderment The swan The swan I gave to you Before you left I wonder where it lives now.
And thats not a question Because I don't need or want an answer One of my girlfriends makes me sick When your name comes up Sounds like you are embracing, trying Who you are now I write the pain away whenever it seeps in.
Remember when we had our call and response? That also wasn't a question Because I don't want your answer And even if you did, in some black void Paint back It would be the color of Transparency.
Its moments and nights Like this, where I choose to reside alone Unlike you, I embrace solitude Marking the page in blueberry ink 23 days.
Maybe I miscounted before I've lost score Of how long it took for me to see
I've lost so much.
My Production Designer tonight sat in my chair And we discussed whether or not We would relive past love again I said I wouldn't.
I don't know I don't know much anymore But the moments and the beauty I felt As I watched my work vibrate, echo, and hover Like fearless angels levitating away from man's grip I thought, I just thought and felt How could I ever want more?
And its funny to me now "Why the **** did he do that?" Bathroom of the DIY space a girlfriend asks In reference to your betrayal, lack of support I watch The Wolf flip his hair, smoke gusting and swirling But my heart, my emotions Funneled into that little ring box You placed your porcelain swan in.
You've got a new one now Its serious, I heard My lover and me, we look right into each others eyes He notices when I'm distant He came to my screening He kissed me this morning before he went to work I don't know or care what any of it means But if you thought you could just store us away In a little box Hide us from the seriousness of your right now You betray your new years resolution With cowardice
But. But. Oh my That wasn't a question None of it was.
I was so tired, my eyes so heavy When I said I love you back for the first time I wasn't ready, I wasn't ready You chased me down the street Piling up your love like decayed skeleton bones To all the questions I didn't and never will ask.
I wish it had been different. I wish I had been different. I wish you had been different. I wish, I just wish