I’m waiting for the night that I can sleep all the way through without waking up in tears because of the dream that I had lost you and the day that I stop looking out my window waiting for your car to pull up the driveway you used to say “I want to be all of your Sunday mornings and Friday nights and every day in between” now here I am on a Tuesday night and I’d rather slit the veins in my wrist than feel the pain in my chest because of the vacant space in my drawer where your sweaters used to be and the toothbrush you left by the sink that I refuse to move in case you decide to come home but I deleted your number in my phone to pretend that I was in control yet it’s the first combination my fingers type when the bottle is empty on a Saturday night but I know on Sunday morning you’ll be waking up in a bed that isn’t mine