The instant you left I knew that I was awaiting death
Heaving in and out over when to expect my last breath
Salty droplets discharged my eyes that became inept
Not knowing when to or even what to accept.

I grew up a childish character creating a lists of wishes
Some deceased from existence and swam with fishes
Between a happy christmas and an attainment of riches
I put you first on that list, and was never suspicious.

I knew I wished for you, not to be mine or to hold,
But to have one cherish the heart behind the arm fold,
A gem that shined love and care and never once was cold,
I wished for you to be happy in a way that is uncontrolled.

I remember talking to you of jennifer lawrence and stars
As though I would pick them over who you personally are
I fed you lies against lies as I sulked out tears in my car
When I knew, no one I would rather be with than you by far.

While the world are small stars you are the beaming sun
You showered everyone with heat while you beared none
You kept your head up through all the times you said “I’m done”
And burned deeply of energy that only ever came from the sun.

The instant you left, I knew it had been for better things
Because there was only so much to the table I could bring
But you were never greedy for wealth, riches or blings
You found happiness from someone else that made you sing.

I guess my wish came true, to see you happy
A tree that formed from  fertilizer so ******
A fertilizer that was nothing but simply me
You found true happiness with he.

Yet I will retain my words I have spoken many times
The one I can only ever express in subdued rhymes.

My love for you is indestructible and will never sever
For as I have said before “I love you now and forever”.