Not quite peach Or even really mauve Laughter filling the tiny space A room with the ability to bounce Only my voice, my thoughts No interruptions.
Oh Thank God, I think and feel No knocking or voices Or obligation to entertain I clear my mind and still yet find myself Toying and collaborating about work Longing and praying For dollar bills to someday soon Flash through my eyeballs.
Surprised by the number One of my composers said If only, if only Cash was a more tangible thing.
I listened to your podcast today You mentioned and sighed about the attractiveness Of famous women, ****** Only to then apologize, you didn't mean to be rude An Always Sunny In Philadelphia reference As if you thought, might think, could breathe That my ears might point and flicker Listening, but only for a moment.
The email I sent you made our best friend cry She sat on the futon last night Tears welling in her eyes She was proud of how kind My lingering and poetic words Rang true.
I don't miss you It surprises me.
I cried some pitiful tears on the bus tonight Disappointment at the lack or Rather--preparation for no future The need to express and/or Warn The need to avoid responsibility But you said you too, believe in love As I tried to paint eloquently in my blue colored text But only blue from my end That perhaps this isn't the right time But I need, I want, I long For all of it. Real, sustainable, I love you so much it makes me sick Love.
A two way street The disappointment at your hesitance, your bullet point Made me retreat Are as you said, "I hope it doesn't avert you"
Casual fun. Casual fun I'm not angry, I'm not hurt But I don't know that my heart will continue to leap When you text message Or snap chat me.
I started to turn the other way And I do in slight little turns Placing my shield right back up Over my heart.
As cards inked in red and black Swim and flash past Breathing and conceiving Indicating, growing Continue your route. Continue your own route.
I poured water all over the floor From my ice bucket I felt like my father filling it up Just like he always does on vacation.