Sometimes I feel so alone
And when I do , I get so mad at you
I get mad at you for leaving me
I hate you for not staying with me
I hate that you chose to leave
Because I forced you to
I hate that I made a dumb mistake to think that someone else could ever love me
Could ever love me as much
No
Could ever love me more than you do
Worst mistake I've ever done and I'm still reminded of it everyday

Sometimes when I cry
I feel like I'm dying
I feel like I've just been slapped in the face by God's hand
And it hurts
It hurts so so much
And I know that if you just
If you just touched
Touched my heart again
I wouldn't feel like that anymore

God gave me a guardian angel
But I let it go
I found a winning lottery ticket
But I lost it  
I held the world's most strongest bond
But I was too weak to carry it