from the moment I have opened my eyes
this storm has done nothing but cloud my mind
it makes me believe that everything that I know
everything I know
is slowly beginning to become a lie
this everyday normality that I have came so custom to
is nothing more than a struggle to keep my head above these flood waters that control my mind
it's been so long that I've been in the shadows
this darkness has devoured my soul
it takes control of my lifeless body
I'm nothing but a ghost for all to see
breathing but not alive
speaking but not being heard
slowly losing myself more each day
each breath causes more pain
I ache for the strength to get through the day
I scream out one last time
my voice merely echoes between these walls I once called home
pull my veins out like they're thread
beat my stomach, arms and head
next my bones to make a pile
drain my blood and wait awhile
stitch me up and make me whole
now you'll see I have no soul
how you see me lying there, is how I feel inside my dear
the sight is not pretty, it's quite revolting
but now you understand what I'm withholding
inch by inch, the cold lips of the night kiss my tired skin
consuming my fragile mind from within
the voices in my head are getting stronger
destructive thoughts cloud my eyes
the storm has just begun