there was a time when I carried a light in my eyes
bound together and stacked so high
my soul was carried through the highest of skies
then in one mass motion it all collapsed to the depths of the ocean
am I the reason for all of my mistakes
am I the one who has built these walls
i fear for what I will become when the earth begins to shake
I'm building up these walls
making sure they stand tall just so I can watch them fall
hoping that one day
these walls that I have built
they will stand for something greater
than keeping the flood waters out
but to control
these internal flames
the ones that I call guilt
for if I rebuild what I have torn down
I prove to myself to be a transgressor
in my mind
i am ****** to an eternity of negativity
with nothing but the darkness as my assessor