I'm not this person
I'm not this person who's emotionally numb
I'm not this person who's content with misery
I'm not this person who stares at a car about to hit her and feels a slight sense of relief because it's the end of my affliction
I'm not the girl that cries herself to sleep
I'm not the girl whose only reason to smile is a cute YouTube video

I'm supposed to be the girl in the picture,  the one that's drowning in joy
The one oblivious to sadness
Not the girl holding back her tears

How are such conflicting concepts housed in the same vessel...
Oh Kodak moment, what a beautiful liar you've shown yourself to be.