i am so happy
not long ago i hit rock b
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all the odds weren't in my favour
i was on the verge of giving up on e v e r y t h i n g
that i ever worked hard for
i simply did not feel like existing or living
it was like darkness adopted me as her child
and depression was my evil step sister who owns me like i am her possession
i couldn't breathe and there was always this overwhelming feeling in my chest
and of course i couldn't get out of this so easily
darkness and depression are both in the same blood line connected into one
while i am an outsider, a child they took over because of the failure and sadness i have felt
i thought, i really did, that i belonged with them
there was no turning back now, this was it

then someone tapped my back
asked me, "do you mind accompanying me for a while?"
in that moment everything that i ever thought of harming myself was simply adrift and gone
it was like they had saved me from making a very big mistake
they had reminded me there is more to life
that sadness and failure was just a part of life
they didn't have to say it out of their mouth
but to me, it felt like they spoke with their mind
and thank goodness i got the message

later i looked up the sky that day
it was raining heavily
and with that person beside me i think this was a gift from God
my own angel
who had helped me to show and save my own self
they were like the role model for me to acknowledge my own worth
and to love my own self as well

all i know is that life is just life
it sometimes punches you in the stomach
and every time you try to get back up
it punches you over and over again
but this doesn't mean you should give up
there must be a reason why you were given this experience
and in every lesson i know it will make you be stronger
have the knowledge to over come it the next time
so i am happy even throughout the hardships i faced
that i am alive
i am well
i am loved
i am cared for
i am living
i am existing
in this very moment
the worst has occurred
but the best is yet to come
be glad you're still here
better days are coming
i assure you that