i blocked your number
this is what i'd send you:

i don't want to let this go but theres not somewhere you can meet me. i have loved you and tried to support you, since the day i met you, but i am still not your number one. and second is not the same. i know you think you aren't doing much to me and you don't think this is a big deal, i am sorry that i fell in love that night we first met. i didn't meant to fall in love. i didn't know i'd get so hurt and this would be so hard. i didn't want to fall in love. you're manipulative and you somehow got me to be everything you needed. i let you shove me around. i let you break me, i thought i was already broken and i thought you knew that but you didn't care. you did not care. and you never will. you promised you'd be there to pick the pieces up and you weren't. you never will care.
i just keep saying this and maybe i will believe it but i keep clinging on to the moments when you cried in my arms and when you pulled me off the ground and wouldn't let me be gone. i just cling to these like stairway railings and i cling so ******* hard the blood can't get to my fingers.
i am so sick of all of these people talking and sick of hanging on to you but its time i move on. i need to move on.
you will never meet anyone that cared like i did. i will never love anybody like i loved you. (love you)