I have these feelings raging inside of me
I hide them in fear someone might find out
I mean I still have feelings for someone else
I love someone else
It hurts because I think of him everyday
He graduates this year
He is so beautiful
He is hidden
I cry myself to sleep
thinking about what he did to me
I loved him
He said he loved me
He didn’t
He let me go
he let me fall
he didn’t give a **** that I was so broken
HE blamed me for his pain
I did nothing
I was there for him
He was so **** unhealthy for me
I came back each time he pushed me away
I hear his voice
I hear him singing our songs
I lost him
I don’t know him
He’s NOT the Miles I fell in love with
I felt connected to you my love
you felt the same
or so I thought
You said words that I want to forget but I can not
You cut me deeper than any sword could
I am bordering breaking down again
the only person who knew
who knew what actually happened is no longer in my life
I tried to end my life again
It was to much to handle
my parents pulled me out because they thought it was to much for me to handle.
it wasn’t I swear
I loved it there
Now I’m as broken as can be I hate the place
that I’m at  
I remember you
you were my forever
now
I’m saying goodbye
and this is my final goodbye
Good bye
Miles Jacob Higgins
you will forever be in my heart