I feel lost the holes in my memory are too numerous to count. I become a green-eyed monster when friends brag about vacation & trips even though I have taken more trips to superior locations. I do not remember.
The minuscule fragments of my childhood paint a depressing picture. Abandonments, death after death after death, Homelessness, loneliness, imperfectness. My memories have collectively signed a DNR. They are unrecoverable. Lost forever in the holes my mind created to prevent insanity.