i can not hurt you and help you too these are two things impossible to do together simultaneously because of the way you feel about me
you shud hate me now for stealing from you for doing what a thief wud do for lying the way a liar lies too for not doing what i promised i wud for not being as strong as i cud for taking your heart out from your chest for doing my worst when i am at my best for getting past your big thick wall only to prove you dont know me at all
i can create pain without you knowing hurt you with a smile showing you sed you saw this betrayal coming then why didnt you set off the **** running straight away from inevitability to get the hell away from me
are you like me after all a *******, do you like to fall just too feel the screaming pain just to watch the blood again is that why you let me do this to you so you cud feel something new anguish is such a novelty when you pretend to think youβre so happy but i dont think you like the pain not the way i like the pain you dont want to make it hurt you want to escape it first before it leaves a lasting mark i for one, i love my scars cut me all up and down bring the pain all around numb me out i wanna drown open vein blood rush sound i indulge in being more lost than found by the end of this page i will be gone completely totally maybe by then you will know me better than you thot you did know i still dont know and i didnt mean to be bad know i was just an ideal that you never really had know that i am a traitor know that i am weak know that you are not my savior know that i am a freak know that i want everything thats bad for me know that i flaunt my lifeβs tragedy just for a little connection a little negative attention i am not the good girl you wud have in your suspension of disbelief i am a cheat i am deplored and you do not want to know me not anymore