I don't believe in
what you believe in

I don't even think
the same as you do
There's

There's a reason
you're my ex
and
the reason
we didn't workout

I don't know
how many
times
I have to tell you

How many times
I have to say it

I think of all

the good times we had

and
I cherish all
the fond
memories

even the
bad one's

I don't understand
your concept

or your way of life

and
you definitely
didn't
understand
mines

Nor could you
comprehend
all the
loneliness
you left me in

You didn't
see all the
hurt you caused

I blame
myself
for staying

I blame
myself for
not believing

I blame myself

For wanting to hear
anything
to change our fates

Have my way
&
my own heart's content

The need to be
loved

was
greater
than the risk
of ya
fist

I conceded & consented

I didnt heed
the warnings


After all this time

I don't see you the same

I see the truth
and
what you really are

All the battle scars
of that relationship

We can't repair

In my minds eyes

  I see all the
misinterpreted behaviors

I allowed myself to believe
was something
other than
what you
always
tried to
show
me

I want no more

You've plainly
showed me it wasn't  
in my best interests to stay

Those vows
were only for the
worst
of our misery  

Combative  

Destructive

Compulsive

Yeah
compulsive
me  

You too & you first

Yeah toxins 
 of a toxic 
 misunderstood
relationship

3 times but my 1st  love huh

Makes no sense
Only to me & only to you

Me

Combative  

Destructive

Compulsive

Yeah
compulsive
me

Has anyone
ever asked
why

Have you
NO!

Yet
I'll tell you

It's because

You can't
love me

no one can

My mama
said so
and
I quote

" WHO COULD EVER LOVE YOU"

So you see

there's no
reason to try to speak

The reality is

I've been doome
since birth
and
No one can
change that

Our paths
crossed
again

it was fun

but
I have no answers

for your quest
or questions

cuz
I don't know
how and/ or who

COULD
  how it
feels to
*Love An Ex