When we were 12 I got my first pair of shorter shorts When I went over to your house I wasn't allowed to wear them Unless it was to sleep
You were always jealous. I was rail thin. You were chubby, But had less ***** than me.
I had no responsibities You had school soccer Volleyball summer jobs And raising your three Other siblings.
Soon you quit eating And thinned out until Your ribs peeked out We sat on the bus I showed you my scars on my arms And you whispered "I put a knife to my stomach But was too scared to push in"
Then we were juniors You gave blow jobs to Your ****** boyfriend While I slept.
Your blonde hair and blue eyes Looked so innocent it hurt.
You lost your virginity. Fell out of love. You talked about going to Arizona for College. That I should go with you. By now I was failing half my classes And going to parties on the weekends.
You met other boys Slept with one who broke your heart And ran back to your First love. He willingly took you.
Then we were seniors. You complained about him. About how small his **** was. How he treated you. How selfish he was. How he's a super senior that'll Be twenty one next year. He's a baker at Carr's. I think you secretly hate him.
You say no more to Arizona. You say yes to University of Anchorage Alaska. Its an hour drive away. You say you're spending Your college years living With your grandma instead of Living on campus.
Your parents dig themselves Into you and live through You. Your perfection.
You are a settler. And I feel you'll be that way Your entire life.