Feb 2016
I just want her to wake up one day and call to say she still loves me.
It was my fault though, i ****** it up, threw it away and **** got ugly.
Who was I at the end of it all?
I wasn't who I was when this started and that became so evident when we departed.
How could i have done this?
I died.
Where was my honesty, cause honestly I'm still wondering what devil took hold of me.
This isn't how momma raised me, my other half took over and the gentlemen got lazy.
Duality is hardly notice, especially in yourself.
Thing 1 and Thing 2, which one is really you?
I lied.
****, what the hell was I just thinking?
That I could get away with it and our hearts would continue linking?
Thing 1 is the fool and Thing 2 made it come true.
God just help me, I'm begging you for mercy
But I thought you didn't believe?
Don't you remember?
It was written on your sleeve.
Duality within me, there's a side that's cruel as can be.
I died.
So why do I decide to wish for this now?
Just ******* wake up and I'll beg even though I don't know how.
It was me.
I did it.
I'm the single guilty party in this one sided game of love.
Wait...you weren't the one sent from above.
Wait...yes she was.
Wait...then why are we here battling internally between number 1 and number 2
Duality inside, stuck together like paper with glue.
I lied.
Who was I at the end of it all?
After all, everyone eventually falls.
At least I've had the time to recognize it.
Reflecting and correcting are always better than neglecting.
The ***** snuck in and I was in denial, that this wouldn't shatter so we drowned deep beneath the Nile.
It was all my fault.
I couldn't see just what I had and if I'm being honest now just know that I'm actually glad that it didn't work out.
That was the awakening I needed.
I lied.
Right now I hope you don't call, I ended happy after all.
My mind flips a lot, I'm glad it's changed to this better thought.
I broke right through the wall, through the *****, the denial, it created the awakening, the revival.
I broke straight through it in pure strength, that journey has finally ended, it's gone it's full length.
The awakening was clear, I fought the duality, I did my best to shake the rage out of me.
I need to finish this now, I need to end it honest, after all it's been so many years.
Just know I never cried a drop, you didn't deserve my tears.
I survived.
It was my fault though, i ****** it up, threw it away and **** got ugly.
Who was I at the end of it all?
I wasn't who I was when this started and that became so evident when we departed.
How could i have done this?
I died.
Where was my honesty, cause honestly I'm still wondering what devil took hold of me.
This isn't how momma raised me, my other half took over and the gentlemen got lazy.
Duality is hardly notice, especially in yourself.
Thing 1 and Thing 2, which one is really you?
I lied.
****, what the hell was I just thinking?
That I could get away with it and our hearts would continue linking?
Thing 1 is the fool and Thing 2 made it come true.
God just help me, I'm begging you for mercy
But I thought you didn't believe?
Don't you remember?
It was written on your sleeve.
Duality within me, there's a side that's cruel as can be.
I died.
So why do I decide to wish for this now?
Just ******* wake up and I'll beg even though I don't know how.
It was me.
I did it.
I'm the single guilty party in this one sided game of love.
Wait...you weren't the one sent from above.
Wait...yes she was.
Wait...then why are we here battling internally between number 1 and number 2
Duality inside, stuck together like paper with glue.
I lied.
Who was I at the end of it all?
After all, everyone eventually falls.
At least I've had the time to recognize it.
Reflecting and correcting are always better than neglecting.
The ***** snuck in and I was in denial, that this wouldn't shatter so we drowned deep beneath the Nile.
It was all my fault.
I couldn't see just what I had and if I'm being honest now just know that I'm actually glad that it didn't work out.
That was the awakening I needed.
I lied.
Right now I hope you don't call, I ended happy after all.
My mind flips a lot, I'm glad it's changed to this better thought.
I broke right through the wall, through the *****, the denial, it created the awakening, the revival.
I broke straight through it in pure strength, that journey has finally ended, it's gone it's full length.
The awakening was clear, I fought the duality, I did my best to shake the rage out of me.
I need to finish this now, I need to end it honest, after all it's been so many years.
Just know I never cried a drop, you didn't deserve my tears.
I survived.
