I'm always apologizing. Even when it's not my fault, and that takes a lot of energy, I miss you but I don't want you back. I miss the person you were, how honest you were with me. When we didn't give a **** about anything. I'm sorry I never held your hand in the hallway. I should have done so many things. I needed you in my life I have no doubt you were supposed to be a part of me for some time. If we had never met, I wouldn't be who I am. And I think I like myself. I'm sad. I am really sad. But that's okay. I know i'll be okay soon. I hate myself for hurting you because I know part of the reason you are who you are is because of the pain I caused you. That's the scariest thing about relationships; you can change the other person. But i think without each other, we would both be in such a worse place than we are now...