Dec 2011
You went and did it, with but one touch you made my wild beating heart stop and sit. With but one look you changed the tempo, to the music of your words that I now play limbo to. What is a man to do, for with a single glance, you have made reason simply prance right out of mind. Made the grip of my rational mind unwind made the upstanding controlled young man unravel and in time you have brought me to a strange new land. In all of this I simply can’t understand can’t justify, vilify can’t demand that you take me back to my simple known land. For now it seems empty, desolate, a waste, you have unknowingly become my mate, my autumn my spring, a song so sweet solemn sacred in a reason only my own. You have staged a conquest and it seems that without rest you plan to place me under undue duress and you unknowingly seek posses the essence that is me. Can’t you see what it is that you do to me, you steal my thoughts with but a single sensual sway of your hips. You captivate my heart with but a single motion of your lips. How I count the ways, and the days that slowly pass as I observe you and berate myself on the lack of class of my actions. You have split my mind into factions, started wars within my heart put need into all of my interactions with my mind and soul. Turned me into a mushy bowl of bleeding emotion such that I now walk with caution careful not awake the slumbering soft bear of emotion that replaced my valiant dragon.
How is it that you hold this much power over me, making the only future that I wish to see one in which you will be with me. As I lay in my chair, my will does not fare well against the torrent of thoughts of that tie my mind mercilessly into knots. So beaten and defeated, divided I slump lower into a world so one sided. I see a place by the sea, you seated in a chair me down on one knee grasping onto your hand and loving this moment more than my next breath. I look to see your eyes and the world slows, time nothing more than a meaningless word. I struggle valiantly to find the right words to keep this magic spell going. To keep the waterfall of emotion flowing, all the while knowing that any words I say will be inadequate to display the jewel that now lays softly in the folds of my own being. But if the words do come, and they pass the rigorous test of my lump of a tongue this is what I would say:
I ache day after day
Night after night
For an answer do I pray
A losing battle do I fight
The dawn of the day
The soothing balm to my pain
The name that I say
The place where my heart is detained
I have been bested
I have completely lost
This eagle has finally nested
For you were worth the cost.
For you I would slay monsters
For you I would conquer worlds
For you I would pay the cost of
Any precious jewel or pearl
For this I only ask that
You simply return the feeling
For I know for a fact that
In you do I find all my meaning
I open my eyes to stare up at the cool white ceiling, clinging to feeling in that made up memory. I feel hot uncomfortable in my own skin, Twisting and turning I find no comfort in any way that I choose to lean. I wonder how and why this has occurred to me, I feel lost cast into the unyielding sea. Slowly like a haggard man stuck with weakness down with a sickness I stand and move to an open window looking out and breathing in the cool air. It only takes a scent, familiar easy like the falling of leaves, and again my mind is awash with thoughts too loud to ignore.
I decide that I can’t take this anymore, I can’t live like this even if it costs me my pride I must seek you out and in you will I have to confide. Determined I walk out and move mission in mind, determined to find you. I turn the corner and there you stand, and again in my throat does my heart land. I walk forward and open my mouth to speak and you look over and softly brush my skin. And again you go and do it with but one touch you make me stop and sit. with but one glance you change the tempo the rhythm of the beating of my heart.
How is it that you hold this much power over me, making the only future that I wish to see one in which you will be with me. As I lay in my chair, my will does not fare well against the torrent of thoughts of that tie my mind mercilessly into knots. So beaten and defeated, divided I slump lower into a world so one sided. I see a place by the sea, you seated in a chair me down on one knee grasping onto your hand and loving this moment more than my next breath. I look to see your eyes and the world slows, time nothing more than a meaningless word. I struggle valiantly to find the right words to keep this magic spell going. To keep the waterfall of emotion flowing, all the while knowing that any words I say will be inadequate to display the jewel that now lays softly in the folds of my own being. But if the words do come, and they pass the rigorous test of my lump of a tongue this is what I would say:
I ache day after day
Night after night
For an answer do I pray
A losing battle do I fight
The dawn of the day
The soothing balm to my pain
The name that I say
The place where my heart is detained
I have been bested
I have completely lost
This eagle has finally nested
For you were worth the cost.
For you I would slay monsters
For you I would conquer worlds
For you I would pay the cost of
Any precious jewel or pearl
For this I only ask that
You simply return the feeling
For I know for a fact that
In you do I find all my meaning
I open my eyes to stare up at the cool white ceiling, clinging to feeling in that made up memory. I feel hot uncomfortable in my own skin, Twisting and turning I find no comfort in any way that I choose to lean. I wonder how and why this has occurred to me, I feel lost cast into the unyielding sea. Slowly like a haggard man stuck with weakness down with a sickness I stand and move to an open window looking out and breathing in the cool air. It only takes a scent, familiar easy like the falling of leaves, and again my mind is awash with thoughts too loud to ignore.
I decide that I can’t take this anymore, I can’t live like this even if it costs me my pride I must seek you out and in you will I have to confide. Determined I walk out and move mission in mind, determined to find you. I turn the corner and there you stand, and again in my throat does my heart land. I walk forward and open my mouth to speak and you look over and softly brush my skin. And again you go and do it with but one touch you make me stop and sit. with but one glance you change the tempo the rhythm of the beating of my heart.
