We seek happiness like an unfulfilling dream but there it is right in front of us. Small precious moments in our everyday lives. Moments which hold so little, but they are acting like a counterweight to the so cold face of pain. Pain which comes in waves. You feel helpless, you can't fight it, and you don't even know if you'll make it. It plunks your entire world into one fine point and when that wave goes away you feel relief just for a moment. Then it comes back to remind you. Don't give in.