i. dear cosmonaut, some days i am in love with you. some days i am in love with you and i ache in every language i know and a thousand i don't; your name spilling from constellations like some pure wor(l)d built elysium.
ii. there are days i am ador(n)ed by the skin of those who matter when kindness blisters and it burns; i am spitfire conflagrations and no respite, no shelter when comfort is the flame you fly from.
iii. in the between moments i am paused floating lonesome interstellar satellites in orbit; these are days that feel like all days and none and i cry out to believe i am. not broken, yet sacred and longing sca(r)red, and wanting. you, perhaps.
iv. dear cosmonaut, some days you are everything; but the sun must always set.
for enrique, who is my cosmonaut even when he cannot reach me.