I’m on my own, nobody holds my hand or offers me a pencil. It gets to be too much is expected and not enough is kept. Learning feels like losing and send offs are more like ****-Offs.
Freshman year, I was allowed to mess up. I weeded through people, and found my best friend while losing my first love.
Sophomore year I ruled the world. I founded a group, we hung out all the time and I had many opportunities to fall in love.
Junior year is here. So many relationships ended because of need and graduation. I have a group but I have to wait to see them. There has not been an opportunity for love and I blame my own baggage.
Senior year is next. I don’t want it to come. Make it stop. I can’t do this anymore.
These are my confessions of being an upperclassmen. If only we could understand we are not too young to thank and its never too late to do the right thing.
Never thought the right thing would be a computer on my lap and silence on Saturday nights. We once danced and drank, but stubbornness is key. Looking back to being young and bold its just not how it used to be. I'm an upperclassmen, and it feels more like the bottom of the world has cemented me. Get me out of here.
Its just so different I was so much happier last year.