I let the heater broil my skin. 29 degrees short of a blistering lobster boil Turning my cheeks two shades less than crimson Just so I can keep my weary red eyes alert.
Cause even though the night sky may relax My raggedly overtaxed mind, Exhaustion still ruins eveningβs solitary stillness.
The stiller I sit The more I wish to slip Into dreams of yesterday Dipping into deep and destructive waters of nostalgia Scabbing over my itchy scratch and sniff pain With highlight clips and theme songs From my old favorite tv shows
Wanting to wash away today's pain With chocolate covered strawberries Till I restore my belief in the brotherhood Of faith and purpose That reason and enlightenment murdered
Mind running engine running Vents pumping out dragonβs breathe But the heat does not hurt The carbon monoxide might suffocate me But the fire does not burn Memories keep strangling me Till I can barely breathe And the only thing I can inhale is regret The only truths I know Are the sorrows I have not felt yet
20 minutes to warm my flesh To think and scribe the thoughts that others hide 20 minutes then I switch the heat too cold Crack the windows and my bones No longer stuck in the past No longer struggling to come back I exist in the now