there’s this phrase that i’ve heard
one that i adore and despise
“care deeply, hurt easily, cry readily”
do you want to know my dilemma with this?
it’s because it describes me
and i hate that and i love that
it’s a problem for me
i’ll break it down for you
but, i should warn you
i don’t know anymore
“care deeply”
it’s a blessing and a curse
a blessing because
i allow people into my life who enrich it
easily form true friendships
love those who love me
a curse because
i allow people into my life who destroy it
easily form fake friendships
love those who hate me
it’s a vicious cycle
one that i cannot escape
but do i want to even escape?
i don’t know anymore
“hurt easily”
i don’t know if this is a good thing
i don’t think it is
i don’t enjoy being hurt
i loathe the fact that i hurt
i don’t see much of a benefit to hurt and to being hurt
that might just be me
but i regret every single time
that i have caused someone to be hurt
it’s something nagging me
i don’t know anymore
“cry readily”
i hate the fact that i cry
i’ve been told it’s a good thing
that i feel compassion for others
but sometimes i don’t want to
why can’t i be calloused?
why must i cry when others do?
why can’t i be stronger?
or is it weakness?
i don’t know anymore
“care deeply, hurt easily, cry readily”
i don’t know anymore
what are the pros
what are the cons
would you tell me?